Live fast. Die young. Be wild. And have fun.

I was on my endless, cruel tour through my life and the girl I met on my way was my only home.

At night I fell asleep with vision of myself with her in a big house and laughing with our kids. I would guard them like gold.  Almost three years I had the feeling to belong to someone and memories of that were the only things that sustained me and my only real happy times. I was a hero, not for the whole world but in her eyes. I always saw that she believes in me. Someone, who once had dreams of becoming a beautiful poet - but upon an unfortunate series of events saw those dreams dashed and divided like million stars in the night sky that I wished on over and over again - sparkling and broken. But I really don't mind anymore because I know now that it takes getting everything you ever wanted and then losing it to know what true freedom is.

When the people I used to know found out what happened, they asked me why. But there's no use in talking to people who have a home, they have no idea what it's like to feel all alone the whole life and then find the first human you belong to, you feel secure with. The area, the new friends you found and then to loose everything at the split of a second.
I was always an unusual girl, my mother told me that I had a wolf's soul. A strong personality, no laws which could bring me down. A girl with strong decisiveness and so on.
And if I said I didn't plan for it to turn out this way I'd be lying - because I was born to be in that drama. I belonged to the stories like Romeo&Juliet. I wanted everything with a fire for every experience and an obsession for romatic that terrified me to the point that I couldn't even talk about it - and pushed me to the dramatic point of madness that dazzeled and dizzied me. I wanted to stay that Romeo.


Every night I used to pray that I'd find my soulmate - and finally I did - in an other town.
We had nothing to lose, everything to gain, so much we desired  - to make our lifes into a work of art.

Live fast. Die young. Be wild. And have fun.

Who are you? Are you in touch with all your darkest fantasies?
Have you ever did something you thought of it's stupid and just exists in movies.
I have. Often.
I'm fuckin' crazy but I'm free to do what I want.
And I have no regrets about nothing.

[based loosely on Lana Del Rey's Ride monologue!]